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This is something I must write for my own sake.
A large chunk of my years on this earth has been plagued with a self-inflicted cycle that has been completely unhealthy for me as an individual, as a Christian and as a part of an amazing family.
There is no need to delve into details. What I will say though is that I’m a square peg who has wasted years trying to fit itself in a round hole. And as I struggle to fit, I not only bruise my sides, I bruise the poor hole too. Enough of all that.

I have spent so many years trying to camouflage my square-ness.
Ok, I know I’m not making sense so I’m going to stop now. I just felt like writing this brief thing.. I’m done with the pretense.
Most importantly, I’m done running away from God. He’s got a square hole for me, and with all my weariness, I’m going to end this cycle and get my battered self to him. Time is not on my side.

I will end with these verses from some Hymns:

 

Oppressed with sin and woe
A burdened heart I bear
Opposed by many a mighty foe
Yet I will not despair

With this polluted heart
I dare to come to thee
Holy and mighty as thou art
For thou wilt pardon me

I feel that I am weak
And prone to every sin
But thou who gives to those who seek
Will give me strength within

In my redeemer’s name
I give myself to thee
And all unworthy as I am
My God will welcome me.

O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I’m constrained to be
Let that grace, Lord, like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to thee
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Take my heart, O take and seal it
Seal it from Thy courts above.

Amen.

 

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4 thoughts on “Untitled

  1. Probably you wrote it with such humor that you might not know the powerful message it conveyed. It is short but it got me thinking about the many times i have tried to fit in a place where I shouldn’t thereby hurting myself and those around me. Nice piece.

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    1. Hmm, why we do that to ourselves, I do not know. I pray you settle right where you’d fit cos when you finally get to that place, the peace is priceless. Wishing you all the best dear!

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